My Problem with Christianity


Most 'Christians' would tell you that Anjelica is lost forever because she didn't do some religious rituals to proclaim her faith in the creator.  This can't be right.  Anjelica was a teenager, susceptible to what other people put into her mind, especially those close to her, but she loved God.
Everybody, including me, struggles with faith in God.  My daughters were taught right from wrong and that there is a creator that loves us and sent His only created child to suffer and die for the sins of the human beings of the world.  The evidence supports this, so I taught them this and took them to church to learn it.

But people say that if you slip or fall into the devil's schemes that you are doomed to hell.  B.S.  That doesn't even make sense.  This world is so confusing.  Religions are poisoning people.  Families are being destroyed.  Lies are prevailing.  Yet our creator expects us to be perfect always?  

What if your good to go for all of your days but you backslide and then you lose your life?  Going to hell?  No way.  

I have seen enough to know these religious concepts are generalized to help us relate to our creator, but there is no way my God is going to torment a child (young lady) for eternity because she was manipulated by godless people or because she didn't do her daily prayers or go to church on Sundays.  And I have no idea - maybe she was closer to God than ever.

What I really don't understand is why I had dreams about something bad happening to her and why I knew she was in a bad place and I prayed for her constantly and I was trying to live right and love God and I was even trying to make a mends with her - but this nastiness happened still.  What's worse is wondering how that affects her sisters and others who knew I was a Christian and tried and I was hurt so bad from her being away from me.  They obviously lost their faith in me, but what about their faith in God?

There's nobody that can make sense of this.  I have been in deep talks with many Christians and they don't have answers.

I think the bible and God's spirit gives us answers thought.

The death of the body is not the final act (John 11:25-26).  It is not a victory for Satan (1 Corinthians 15:51-58).  It is only a scare tactic that he uses by enticing people to lead destructive lives and to murder others or even themselves (2 Corinthians 11:3).  Solomon said that the day of death is better than the day of birth (Ecclesiastes 7).  Although this might have been somewhat facetious, it still holds true that our suffering ends with our last breath (1 Corinthians 15:42-44).  Also, future suffering does not occur.

I have to believe that either God does not listen to my prayers or that Anjelica's death was within the realm of protecting her as I had asked.  Maybe there was something worse that was to come.  Something that would corrupt her heart and mind.  Maybe she had lived her days out.  I believe we all have an appointed time.  Maybe she was brought into this world to show people certain things, which was the best way to serve God's will.  

ALL human life is valuable and meaningful and precious to the creator (Matthew 6:26), even when they turn against God over and over and operate outside his protection.  How much more then would an innocent child, who was betrayed by those closest to her, be to our loving creator?  That is the God I know and serve.  I do not know why all of this has happened.  I know it is not the will of God that any should perish (2 Peter 3:9), though we do often suffer because of the sin of the world including our own sin, and our God uses this suffering to humble us to Him, but man was originally created for peace and happiness - not suffering.  We have created that ourselves.

Our creator is the continuous giver of love.  We only need open our heart to the ever flowing stream of love and health and wisdom and victory.

Zachariah Hoffer

Father of 3 precious girls. Trying to love. Despite my brokenness and despite evil in this world.