The push is for me to lie down in disgrace and weakness in utter despair in the loss of a most precious child...

I have wept and do still.  I have lied down helpless and hopeless, not able to breathe, knowing that she, who I was made to protect, has no more breath in her.  Her breath was taken under a cloud of lies and betrayal and selfishness.  But I have no right to be weak, while I am seeking justice for my daughter, for ALL THREE of my daughters.

My heart is her heart.  My voice is her voice.  Of course I am still here getting in the way, but the driving force is that spirit that I know Anjelica to have.  Her heart accomplished more in her short life than I ever will in my long years of toil, but I will work to do what her heart would have me do.

Because of the injustice done to Anjelica, Delegate Christopher Stolle and his compassionate assistant, Cindy DiFranco have written a bill titled "ADOPTION BY STEPPARENT.  BACKGROUND CHECK."  This requires a national background check for potential step-parents adopting children, which gives the judge something to decided whether to order further investigation.  I might have hoped for a MANDATORY home study to gain perspective of the real dynamics of the family, if only for the record, whether or not it would impede adoption.  I am still very proud to know Anjelica's passing has inspired some change.  As of today, the bill, HB 227, has passed the Health, Welfare, and Institutions subcommittee 10-0 (1.16.18), and the House passed it 21-0 today!  One step toward justice.  And only possible because of Anjelica's courageous and contagious heart.

Another step for me personally, and hopefully to help someone, somewhere is that I have submitted my paperwork to be a counselor at the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children.  I am not cut out for this work, because of my insecurities, but underneath I have a yearning heart to help these people during this confusing and traumatic time of their lives.  Anjelica would push through, without recognition of insecurity, though many she may have.

The time is drawing near for the criminal justice system to do its part in fulfilling justice4anjelica.  I can almost taste the freedom from the anger of how she has been hurt, and how her sisters have thus been hurt, and I can testify that I also have been hurt.  On the other side, will be peace in knowing that I loved Anjelica with all of my heart and so badly wished the very best for her, and tried so hard to protect her, yet though I failed.  I will still have some peace in the memories, but never true peace knowing that I am still living and she rests without the joy of being a sister, and whatever else this world had in store for her.  I pray her place is better than the strife of the living and long to see her once again...

Zachariah Hoffer

Father of 3 precious girls. Trying to love. Despite my brokenness and despite evil in this world.


Sally Edwards - March 4th, 2018 at 12:01pm

Many of us continue to grieve with you, Zach. Wonderful news about the delegate working to pass a bill for step-parent adoption background checks. And a great web site and tribute to AnJelica! Our love and prayers are with you!

Zachariah Hoffer - September 18th, 2019 at 11:46am

Thank you Sally. Please don't forget Anjelica.

Amy Elaine Fowler - March 7th, 2018 at 12:18pm

Zach, I am just now catching up on Anjelica's case through Weblseuths. I lost my husband Feb. 2015 , so somehow I missed all of this when it was happening. The last 2 days I have been reading and trying to catch up on everything. My heart goes out to you. I am so glad that you are making good things happen out of your loss. I so enjoyed looking at the pictures you posted here. While I had read and know that you raised her till she was 13 years old, it really made it real to me by looking at the pictures. I see a little girl that was very happy and enjoyed life. I know you will always feel a part of you is gone. But hold on to those memories and how blessed she was to have you in those oh so important years.

Zachariah Hoffer - September 18th, 2019 at 11:46am

Thank you Amy. Please don't forget Anjelica.