a full day

Started by digging into the book of Job.  Learned about justice.  Such burning questions.  The same asked by Job.  Why?  Why do the righteous suffer, and the wicked prevail?  The young Elihu enlightens us.  We are ALL worthy of 'the pit', of severe punishment, because we are all far from perfect.  Yet we are spared.  We are so lucky to have been created and breathed life into, by the ALL mighty God - Jehovah.

I made a video to connect with people.  Facebook has a certain high energy vibe.  A lot of positive.  A lot of negative.  I wanted to bring my own vibe.  Just reality.  Humility.  I find strength in a couple things right now.  The truth of God's word, drawing me closer to relationship with Him.  Anjelica's fighting spirit.  And hope.  Hope that my girls with wake up soon and not be traumatized by the onslaught of emotional abuse that has been waged against them.

I ended the day learning about broken parents teaching their children to hate the other parent.  Dr. Craig Childress was on "Mommy Interrupted".  It is amazing how much of a movement this is.  Over 12,000 people watched that episode already.  Amazing.  Sad, because most of them have tragic stories.  But how blessed to know I am not alone.  I am not crazy.  How many years I went.  If only I knew this before. 

I only press into this because I feel the energy of my three daughter's love.  I have received so much from them.  So unconditional.  So I use that strength to forge on.

It's been 8 months since I laid my eyes on Justice Rae-Ann, and only one time in those 8 months did I get to see Gracie-Lynn.  And really the time before that was very strained since their sister passed.  Even somewhat before, as Justice was pulling away.  Why must there be this strain on them?